Bulba shut his eyes again. Maybe if he could just... find that feeling again, that one deep inside. It was the one that felt a little like sunshine if he had to put a name to it, and the one he had tried to find that time so long ago. He didn't know if it would work, or if the pink blossom hiding beneath him would hear it, but... Bulba's fingers curled tightly in Vinnie's hoodie.

Please don't let him fall, he tried to say to anything that could listen. Please don't let him crumble.

"It was worth it," Bulba said firmly, as if he believed it. He had to. All the shit they had been through had to be worth it otherwise why else would they even... be...

Please.

"Don't look back."